All eyes have been on my progress for some time now. I’m not going to say that I have gotten used to the attention, but part of me has gotten used to a similar reaction from people. As my body’s changes have all but halted, so have the reactions. The muscle growth I am working on isn’t something that anyone will notice month to month. Friends and family are getting over the shock of my “new” appearance.
There was a time where I would get excited for the next family function so I could see everyone and in turn they could see me. While I didn’t expect the praise or admiration, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy it. But I knew it wouldn’t last. I knew this would happen. I wasn’t expecting to keep shrinking until I disappeared. While my success was never dependent upon anyone’s reaction, getting that reaction was certainly a motivator to keep going. Seeing the changes myself was motivation. I don’t have too much of either anymore. I’m maintaining my weight now, so I do understand what that entails. But I can see how all too easily, maintaining can lead to being relaxed and relaxed can lead to lazy. Not the path I want to be on.
So now what?
I can tell you that there have been many days each month that I feel like I have entered the relaxed zone. On these days I don’t feel like exercising at all. Time is certainly a factor in this. The holidays are coming, so there’s the hustle and bustle of that. My work is very steady right now so I have my hands full for sure. But I know what little time it really does take to get a work out in, and some days I can’t even force myself to go the small extra mile. Giving this issue some thought, I have determined that this is pretty normal. I have to imagine that the average, active person goes through the same thing. Right? Periods of highs and lows, always searching for that middle ground. Searching for balance.
Even though I might not be sticking to the strict workout schedule that got off the final pounds for me, that has not ONCE given me license to fall back into any old eating habits. That’s where this whole “lifestyle” thing kicks in. I really have changed the way I eat – forever. So while I may skip a workout, it isn’t because I am too busy eating a bag of chips lounging on the couch watching Dancing With The Stars. I am running errands, running my small business and running my household. You know – normal, human activities. (And might I add that all these activities ARE burning calories. They might not be done with huge, vigorous effort, but I am not by any means embracing my inner sloth.)
I really take notice of the days I don’t feel like working out. I ask myself, why? Am I just being lazy, or do I really not feel good? Some days I can push through a workout and other days I know I would be half assing it and my time would better spent elsewhere. I’ve learned that I have to want to do things. I cant be forced. And the unique thing is, is that if I miss a couple days back to back, I start going stir crazy and cannot WAIT to get back at it! I miss it! So the key for me is to continue to find ways of moving my body that excite me. Moving my body isn’t being done for weight loss purposes now. I find myself yet again, having to take a step back mentally and reevaluate my trajectory. Where am I going? Where do I want to be? How do I want to get there? I’m working on a daily basis to answer those questions.
All of you reading this, and especially those who give feed back, absolutely help keep me motivated throughout my maintenance. This past month has been so overwhelming in terms of the gratitude I have received due to my recent accolades. It means the world to me. I’ve been asked to be a guest speaker at a weight loss support group in a couple weeks. Getting the chance to continue to tell my story helps re energize me as well. It helps to keep me focused and in turn, I hope, will really help the people who I speak to. I’ll be sure to let you all know how it goes.